Blog-Titel geändert, aber immer noch etwa Kaudasyndrom & mir

Ich have changed the title of my blog. Why? Not out of boredom or just liking change, much has happened since my last post. I'll soon post about it, but for now we can say that the Lord has changed my view of what has happened to me... and His immediate purposes behind it.

My faith has seen me through this "Battle" mit Cauda equine Syndrom (CES) thus far, but I had no idea where my faith journey was heading. Ja, I wondered why this had happened, what God wanted me to learn and how I should view it. We all know that bad things happen to good people and good things happen to bad people. We always want to know why and often the answer we get is that we may never know why in this lifetime so we just have to live with it. I've heard a lot over the years about people with terrible injuries and diseases "Kampf" oder "battling" those things which seek to either ruin or take their life. Friends and relatives have been touched by, and some lost to, injuries or disease. Now it is my turn.

What I came to realize is that I had stopped growing spiritually and I was barely being effective in God's Kingdom. God wanted so much more from me but I had succumbed to "The Rat Race" and devoted myself to my work. Don't get me wrong, work is important, but so much more had suffered. My relationship with my wife, my time and service to God and the joy was gone from my life. Through this time of a changed life, where the daily routine of getting up and going to work is a draining physical challenge for me, I've seen myself as battling CES as though my faith, grit and determination were being tested. While they were being tested, that wasn't all. My focus had been on recovering far more than the doctors and physical therapists ever thought I could, further than the medical research said I could. I was going to win my "Battle". I didn't, and don't, hold out the idea of a complete recovery but my goal has been to be able to walk without assistance again - a lofty goal for someone with CES.

It was my attitude that needed changing. I saw this as a challenge where my faith would see me through and coming out the other side of this I would give the credit to God. I would be a faithful soldier in His service. Nothing wrong with that, but... God wanted me. All of me. He has wanted all of me for a long time. I thought I had given myself to Him fully many years ago. He has used me in so many ways everywhere I've lived. But as I said, I had slowly slipped back in to taking His blessings and running with it for my own purposes without even considering His. My wife tried to help me see it, but I was too focused on my goal - which had been so out of reach and now, because of God's blessing, was within my grasp. My attitude had slowly changed and was no longer good. God's smackdown on me physically also affected me emotionally, mentally and spiritually as well. Schließlich, everything was stripped away but the spiritual. I found that I had taken myself back from God and He was calling me to give myself completely to Him. Only this time, I understand there is much more depth in this commitment than I ever thought possible before.


In the Ohio derecho storms of June 29, 2012, we lost an old Ash tree that was 85 feet in length. Two men gave us a really good quote on cutting up the tree, removing the stump, and hauling it all away. They figured they could do it in 2 days, 6 hours a day . The stump was incredibly stubborn. Once they started on it, they found it had thick roots running out in all directions for many, many feet. It was too thick for their saws. They chopped at it with axes and worked 3 days from morning till dark. They even had another person come help. And still the stump remained. Finally they rented a stump grinder and did their best. That stump beat them badly for days. Schließlich, they accomplished what we needed leaving a small mound where the tree had been, jedoch, there are still roots under that mound. And they had spent over 40 hours on the project. Their quote earned them less than $6 per hour.

That's how it is when I first gave myself "fully" to God. I saw what looked like full commitment and made that commitment. Over time, there was more and more revealed but I had my goals and dreams too and there was no time, no room, for truly giving myself to God as fully as He wanted. In time, I took back what I had given Him. Suddenly, this year, God changed all of that. Stricken with an injury that would change the rest of my life, taking away many of the things I wanted to do and accomplish, I now had time for Him. I've learned that He wants all of me, and I've made that commitment to Him. Jetzt, whatever recovery I have is fine with me. Of course being who I am, I will still be pushing for the best results possible. As with many whom God used in the past, He has place His mark of ownership on me - my CES. It is a reminder of whose I am, whose strength I depend on, and who has complete control of my life. We are not to give God a little, or even a large, part in our lives. He wants our whole life to be a part of His. He wants to live out His life through us. That's what the Bible means when Paul wrote in the 8th Chapter of Romans that we who believe are being shaped and molded by God to be just like Jesus. Not just our character, but character drives motivation, and out of motivation comes actions. God uses the events in our lives to transform us (Romans 12), and He transforms us into people who think, act, speak, and love just like Jesus. Why? So He can reach people who don't know, or those who don't care about His love.

No wonder so many in America today don't want anything to do with Christianity or church - look at how we Christians live! That isn't God's plan. Time for me to get with the plan. And I no longer fight CES, but it is a mark of ownership on me and of my commitment to God. So it is now "Mein Leben mit Kaudasyndrom" and thus the new name for my blog.


 

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  1. […] Ich lachte, als ich diese! Nun, so viel, wie man lachen, während im schlimmsten Schmerzen, die ich je gefühlt habe. I already had most of these return or get immediate attention symptoms!! Die Frau sagte, dass es sich nur generische Entlastung Anweisungen für Bandscheibenvorfälle und nicht spezifisch für mich. Die meisten Staaten, die medizinische Literatur Chirurgie dekompressiven muss innerhalb geführt werden 24-48 Stunden oder das Ergebnis ist viel schlimmer. Sobald diese 48 Stunden weg sind, Sie sind ziemlich gut läuft zum Abschluss für den Rest Ihres Lebens mit Behinderungen. So sagt der Literatur. I can tell you right now that that is not always the case as I’m living proof, but that is another story. Andere medizinische Literatur sagt, dass die Operation muss innerhalb getan werden 6-12 Stunden, um das Ergebnis zu bewirken. Still other studies say that time to surgery doesn’t affect the outcome. Warum eine solche Divergenz? Kaudasyndrom ist selten. Niemand weiß genau, wie selten, aber meine Forschung von verfügbaren Schätzungen würde nicht mehr als ein paar hundert neue Fälle pro Jahr in den US-zeigen. Es dauerte schließlich 2 Wochen nach meiner Operation durchgeführt werden soll. Die Operation im Riverside Methodist Hospital in Columbus, OH ging gut, Ich ging durch akute Rehab dort für eine Woche nach der Operation. Ich ging dann durch 15 Sitzungen der Physiotherapie bei Novacare in Wester, OH. Mein Ergebnis ist, dass ich etwas normales Gefühl wieder in meinem Taillenbereich etwas in meinen Oberschenkeln haben und in meinem shins. Ich habe schmerzhafte Kribbeln in anderen Teilen meiner Oberschenkel und in den Füßen. Meine Waden sind meist taub, es sei denn gedrückt auf – dann kann ich die Beinmuskeln sind eng sagen, but the good part is that I can’t feel the cramps. Ich mache Strecken mehrmals täglich für Kälber und Beinbeuger. Ich benutze Vision für das Gleichgewicht und die Beinschwäche hat sich verringert, d.h. Stärke zurückgekehrt, bis zu dem Punkt, wo ich zu Fuß über kann 500 Füße mit einem Stock und über 125 Füße ohne fremde Hilfe. Darm- und Blasenfunktion ist, dass sie funktionieren,, I just can’t control them or tell when I have to go – Ich erhalte Überraschungen. Ich versuche auf einem regelmäßigen Zeitplan zu gehen Überraschungen zu vermeiden, und ich kann die meiste Zeit sagen, wenn meine Blase ist mit der undichten Stelle immer in der Nähe. Ich erhalte eine oder zwei Minuten die meiste Zeit auf dem Stuhlgang Warnung, but I don’t generally feel them. Mit anderen Worten, meine verzögerte Operation sollte mich haben diese Option nicht aktivieren, im Bett, cathing mich, und auf Schmerzmittel. Ich arbeite Vollzeit, am ambulatory over short distances don’t need cathing, und sind auf mild, Nicht-narkotische Schmerzmittel. Zusamenfassend, meine Genesung war großartig. Eine der besten. Jedoch, Ich habe immer noch ein Leben der alltäglichen eine körperliche Herausforderung und Kampf zu sein. That won’t change, but that’s okay (Gegenstand einer anderen Geschichte.) Ich habe eine Menge gefragt, ob ich wieder normal bekommen hätte, oder fast normal, hatte hatte ich eine Operation schnell, innerhalb 48 Stunden. Das Gefühl, dass die Pflege ich vom Notarzt erhielt, war nachlässig, Ich nahm alles auf eine Columbus, OH Anwalt. Er rief einen anderen Anwalt in Cleveland, OH für eine zweite Meinung. Sie waren sich einig, dass sowohl Verfehlung begangen wurde, dass der Notarzt “den Ball fallengelassen” as one of the attorneys put it. Jedoch, due to the standards for malpractice claims in Ohio, both attorneys felt that proving that the doctor’s negligence greatly affected my outcome (my really much better than predicted by the facts outcome) would be an insurmountable challenge in court. Since that is the portion that really drives the dollar amount of any settlement, and thus the attorney’s fees, my remarkable recovery makes pursuing the malpractice and negligence of the ER doctor not feasible. So the summary is that the laws in Ohio say that what I’ve been through, and will go through the rest of my life, amounts to nothing. Our legal system is such that only lucrative cases are pursued. Und unser medizinisches System nicht erziehen keine Ärzte, Krankenschwestern, und Ersthelfer angemessen auch nicht halten sie sie aktualisiert. Hätte der Notarzt erkannte, dass Blasenbindung und nicht nur Inkontinenz ist ein Indikator, wir hätten golden gewesen. Die Informationen in Bezug auf Retention im Internet und in medizinischen Zeitschriften weit verbreitet. Sie spiegeln die richtige Diagnose auf der Basis von 1 Symptom ist nicht das, was ich in einem Arzt möchte. Ich glaube, dass Gerechtigkeit in diesem verloren hat. Jedoch, Ich bin in Frieden mit diesem, wie ich in diesem Beitrag beziehen – Mein Blog Titel geändert, aber immer noch über Kaudasyndrom und Me. […]

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