CES | Mois 7

Un autre mois comme une victime de la CES est dans les livres. Je dois dire, il a été un mois charnière dans ma vie, si ce n'est pas mon rétablissement.

Moving est sur fait avec. Nous avons encore un wagon de cotes & se termine en restant à l'ancien lieu, avec le nettoyage, il (et un peu de peinture). At the new (old) place, we have a lot of boxes. We’re unpacking as needed, or motivated. A lot yet to be done there and we've had quite a few offers of help. We aim to take you up on those offers. We’re just going to be taking our time about it. With the move, I now have an hour commute each way to/from work. Ok, so my drive time just tripled. The biggest challenge is how I will feel on Friday evening on the way home. Will it be too much for me? We will see.

Mois 7, I've reconnected with some old friends and acquaintances on Facebook. It has had some disappointments and some very pleasant surprises, as one would expect. Trips down memory lane, good times and sad, and dreams attained, put on hold, or dashed. Lots of retrospection / introspection with regards as to the mark I've left in life so far. I've been evaluating it in terms of what I want to do in my final third of life. In the Bible, God dealt with Moses in 3 specific 40 year periods in Moses' 120 year life. Each period was very different than the other 2, yet when it was done, la 3 periods all tied together to bring about a world changing impact that could not have happened without all 3 periods. I'm 55 now, so I'm definitely into my 3rd period and it is time for me to make the biggest impact on the world around me. I may not change the world, but I want to change it for that part of the world which I can.

I look back at where I was after 6 months of life with Cauda Equina Syndrome. I haven’t noticed much improvement in my symptoms since Month 2, but there has been a continued buildup of leg strength. The sharp, electric shock pains in my right foot have migrated from big toe to my other toes and top of foot. This is actually better because the big toe not being as prone to pain allows me better balance to some degree. Better balance means walking is slightly less tiring. That means I can do a little bit more than a month ago. My stretches and exercises have continued to make me more limber and stronger. So I can do things with less pain and energy expenditure. The biggest change has been in how I viewed my having CES.

I use the term “recovery” loosely. I know that CES is something one has and is something that only a very, very few truly recover from. Most sufferers do not regain a normal life. A few see significant improvements in symptoms which allows them to resume an outwardly (almost) normal life. Then there are the very few who see complete recovery from symptoms. While medical literature tells us that those who have decompression surgery within 48 hours of symptoms appearing are almost exclusively the ones who see the better outcomes, the delay in diagnosis and decompression for the rest of us almost certainly dooms us to a life of dealing with the symptoms. My time from onset of symptoms to decompression surgery was just under 14 days… about 320 hours… not 48.

So I’m deeply in the group of “doomed to a life of pain and disability.” I’ve not seen myself that way since I found out about what I have. Part of that is from my dogged determination type personality – I don’t give up until there is nothing left to give up on. I have, and will continue, to work physically as hard as my determination can push my body to have an above average outcome. My faith has believed that this was a trial to try my faith. Not in terms of believing or not believing God will heal me, because He will do what He will. But a trial through which my life message of God’s goodness adds another chapter.

But He had so much more in mind!

Kim and I have spiritually journeyed along the same path but separately. This last week of Month 7, I was on vacation for the move and the week afterward. We joined in our spiritual journey for several days and then one day, due to schedules, we did not do our study together. It was a study of concrete examples of what being “All In” for God really means. And it means far more than I’ve thought in the past. While we’ve given our hearts and lives over to Him, we find, through brutally honest self-evaluation that haven’t done so completely. We’ve held onto some control – we want to follow our own desires and then have God clean up any mess we might make. We’ve kept some small pockets of control for us. As we heard the challenge, we both, séparément, made the commitment to truly give ALL of EVERYTHING to God.

I’ve seen the change in my heart as I’ve grown closer to God these 7 mois, but nothing has changed me like this past week. I am a new and vastly improved David. And my Bride is lovelier than ever. We’ve been given a challenge, a mission, and a path to follow. We’re excited. And life has changed for us. CES is a part of me now, something which God has shown I can only deal with through His strength for I have no strength in my own right.

No more fighting CES, but not giving in to it either, I instead have placed it in God’s hands. In doing so, I will do my part and know that He will do His. CES is now no longer something bad that happened to me. It is a tool to be used by God in His plan for my life. I look back and see how two strong (and strong-willed) personnes, joined together in marriage over 18 il ya des années, have been shaped and molded in that time to fall completely into God and learn what He means when the Apostle Paul wrote,

“And He said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.’ Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. " [2Cr 12:9 LSG]

In our weakness God will be shown to be strong. Until now, God has been a part of our lives. From now on, we will be a part of His instead.

Quel mois!!!!!

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Parler grand sur les intestins

J'ai eu ma dernière post-chirurgicale (6 mois) suivi de jeu.. Je suis maintenant libéré de chirurgical suivi. Lorsque le chirurgien et moi avons discuté de qui doit fournir des soins continus dans les jours à venir, nous allions en bas de la liste de contrôle des symptômes et où chacun étions. Quand nous sommes arrivés à "intestins", Je parlais grand sur la façon dont j'étais assez cohérente - une journée normale ou 2 de 1 - 2 normal BM's, suivi d'un grand jour (5 - 7 BM's, mais pas de diarrhée), puis 2 days of no BM's. Puis le cycle recommence. Je lui ai dit que je reçois habituellement un "2 avertissement minutes" d'avoir un BM. Donc pas besoin d'un spécialiste dans ce domaine.

Lendemain. Vendredi. Assis à la maison vendredi soir nettoyer un disque dur sur le réseau domestique. Femme passe et remarque que mon pet semblait humide & sent différent que d'habitude (souffrant du syndrome de la queue de cheval sont des producteurs prodigieux de flatulences) donc je ferais mieux de vérifier. I didn't have any warning signs, et ne pas être capable de sentir dans ce domaine, J'ai pris ses conseils à la légère. Comme il était sur le coucher, quelques minutes plus tard, je suis allé à mettre sur ma couche de nuit.

Devrait avoir écouté la femme. Nous avons passé un beau gâchis à nettoyer!

Première fois dans 5 mois. Juste après se vanter. Proverbes 16:18 (LSG) - "Arrogance précède la ruine, Et l'orgueil précède la chute." & Galates 6:14 (LSG) - "Mais Dieu ne plaise que je vanter que de la croix de notre Seigneur Jésus-Christ, par qui le monde est crucifié pour moi, et moi pour le monde" deux viennent à l'esprit.

Des conseils judicieux. I'll keep my mouth in check in the future!


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