ຫົວ​ຂໍ້​ຂອງ blog ການ​ປ່ຽນ​ແປງ​ແຕ່​ຍັງ​ກ່ຽວ​ກັບ​ການ Cauda Equina ໂຣກ & ຂ້າ​ພະ​ເຈົ້າ

ຂ້າ​ພະ​ເຈົ້າ have changed the title of my blog. Why? Not out of boredom or just liking change, much has happened since my last post. I'll soon post about it, but for now we can say that the Lord has changed my view of what has happened to me... and His immediate purposes behind it.

My faith has seen me through this "Battle" ກັບ ໂຣກ equine Cauda (CES) thus far, but I had no idea where my faith journey was heading. ແມ່ນ​ແລ້ວ, I wondered why this had happened, what God wanted me to learn and how I should view it. We all know that bad things happen to good people and good things happen to bad people. We always want to know why and often the answer we get is that we may never know why in this lifetime so we just have to live with it. I've heard a lot over the years about people with terrible injuries and diseases "ການ​ຕໍ່​ສູ້" or "battling" those things which seek to either ruin or take their life. Friends and relatives have been touched by, and some lost to, injuries or disease. Now it is my turn.

What I came to realize is that I had stopped growing spiritually and I was barely being effective in God's Kingdom. God wanted so much more from me but I had succumbed to "The Rat Race" and devoted myself to my work. Don't get me wrong, work is important, but so much more had suffered. My relationship with my wife, my time and service to God and the joy was gone from my life. Through this time of a changed life, where the daily routine of getting up and going to work is a draining physical challenge for me, I've seen myself as battling CES as though my faith, grit and determination were being tested. While they were being tested, that wasn't all. My focus had been on recovering far more than the doctors and physical therapists ever thought I could, further than the medical research said I could. I was going to win my "Battle". I didn't, and don't, hold out the idea of a complete recovery but my goal has been to be able to walk without assistance again - a lofty goal for someone with CES.

It was my attitude that needed changing. I saw this as a challenge where my faith would see me through and coming out the other side of this I would give the credit to God. I would be a faithful soldier in His service. Nothing wrong with that, but... God wanted me. All of me. He has wanted all of me for a long time. I thought I had given myself to Him fully many years ago. He has used me in so many ways everywhere I've lived. But as I said, I had slowly slipped back in to taking His blessings and running with it for my own purposes without even considering His. My wife tried to help me see it, but I was too focused on my goal - which had been so out of reach and now, because of God's blessing, was within my grasp. My attitude had slowly changed and was no longer good. God's smackdown on me physically also affected me emotionally, mentally and spiritually as well. ໃນ​ທີ່​ສຸດ, everything was stripped away but the spiritual. I found that I had taken myself back from God and He was calling me to give myself completely to Him. Only this time, I understand there is much more depth in this commitment than I ever thought possible before.

In the Ohio derecho storms of June 29, 2012, we lost an old Ash tree that was 85 feet in length. Two men gave us a really good quote on cutting up the tree, removing the stump, and hauling it all away. They figured they could do it in 2 days, 6 hours a day . The stump was incredibly stubborn. Once they started on it, they found it had thick roots running out in all directions for many, many feet. It was too thick for their saws. They chopped at it with axes and worked 3 days from morning till dark. They even had another person come help. And still the stump remained. Finally they rented a stump grinder and did their best. That stump beat them badly for days. ໃນ​ທີ່​ສຸດ, they accomplished what we needed leaving a small mound where the tree had been, ຢ່າງ​ໃດ​ກໍ​ຕາມ, there are still roots under that mound. And they had spent over 40 hours on the project. Their quote earned them less than $6 per hour.

That's how it is when I first gave myself "fully" to God. I saw what looked like full commitment and made that commitment. Over time, there was more and more revealed but I had my goals and dreams too and there was no time, no room, for truly giving myself to God as fully as He wanted. In time, I took back what I had given Him. Suddenly, this year, God changed all of that. Stricken with an injury that would change the rest of my life, taking away many of the things I wanted to do and accomplish, I now had time for Him. I've learned that He wants all of me, and I've made that commitment to Him. ໃນ​ປັດ​ຈຸ​ບັນ, whatever recovery I have is fine with me. Of course being who I am, I will still be pushing for the best results possible. As with many whom God used in the past, He has place His mark of ownership on me - my CES. It is a reminder of whose I am, whose strength I depend on, and who has complete control of my life. We are not to give God a little, or even a large, part in our lives. He wants our whole life to be a part of His. He wants to live out His life through us. That's what the Bible means when Paul wrote in the 8th Chapter of Romans that we who believe are being shaped and molded by God to be just like Jesus. Not just our character, but character drives motivation, and out of motivation comes actions. God uses the events in our lives to transform us (Romans 12), and He transforms us into people who think, act, speak, and love just like Jesus. Why? So He can reach people who don't know, or those who don't care about His love.

No wonder so many in America today don't want anything to do with Christianity or church - look at how we Christians live! That isn't God's plan. Time for me to get with the plan. And I no longer fight CES, but it is a mark of ownership on me and of my commitment to God. So it is now "ຊີ​ວິດ​ຂອງ​ຂ້າ​ພະ​ເຈົ້າ​ກັບ Cauda Equina ໂຣກ" and thus the new name for my blog.


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  1. […] I laughed when I read these! Well as much as one can laugh while in the worst pain I’ve ever felt. I already had most of these return or get immediate attention symptoms!! The woman said that these were just generic discharge instructions for herniated discs and not specific to me. Most medical literature states that decompressive surgery must be done within 24-48 hours or the outcome is far worse. Once those 48 hours are gone, ທ່ານ​ກໍາ​ລັງ pretty ດີ​ກັບ​ພະ​ລັງ​ງານ​ລົມ​ເຖິງ​ຄົນ​ພິ​ການ​ສໍາ​ລັບ​ສ່ວນ​ທີ່​ເຫຼືອ​ຂອງ​ຊີ​ວິດ​ຂອງ​ທ່ານ. ດັ່ງ​ນັ້ນ​, ວັນ​ນະ​ຄະ​ດີ​ໄດ້​ກ່າວ​ວ່າ. ຂ້າ​ພະ​ເຈົ້າ​ສາ​ມາດ​ບອກ​ທ່ານ​ມີ​ສິດ​ໃນ​ປັດ​ຈຸ​ບັນ​ທີ່​ບໍ່​ແມ່ນ​ສະ​ເຫມີ​ກໍ​ລະ​ນີ​ທີ່​ຂ້າ​ພະ​ເຈົ້າ​ພິ​ສູດ​ເຈົ້າ​ດໍາ​ລົງ​ຊີ​ວິດ, ແຕ່​ວ່າ​ແມ່ນ​ເລື່ອງ​ຂອງ​ຄົນ​ອື່ນ. ວັນ​ນະ​ຄະ​ດີ​ທາງ​ການ​ແພດ​ອື່ນໆ​ເວົ້າ​ວ່າ​ການ​ຜ່າ​ຕັດ​ຈະ​ຕ້ອງ​ໄດ້​ເຮັດ​ພາຍ​ໃນ 6-12 ຊົ່ວ​ໂມງ​ຜົນ​ກະ​ທົບ​ຜົນ​ໄດ້​ຮັບ. ຍັງ​ສຶກ​ສາ​ອື່ນໆ​ເວົ້າ​ວ່າ​ທີ່​ໃຊ້​ເວ​ລາ​ທີ່​ຈະ​ຮັບ​ການ​ຜ່າ​ຕັດ​ບໍ່​ໄດ້​ຜົນ​ກະ​ທົບ​ຕໍ່​ຜົນ​ໄດ້​ຮັບ. ເປັນ​ຫຍັງ​ຈຶ່ງ di​​vergence ດັ່ງ​ກ່າວ? Cauda Equina ໂຣກ​ແມ່ນ​ຫາ​ຍາກ. ບໍ່​ມີ​ໃຜ​ຮູ້​ແທ້​ເຮັດ​ແນວ​ໃດ​ທີ່​ຫາ​ຍາກ, ແຕ່​ວ່າ​ການ​ຄົ້ນ​ຄວ້າ​ຂອງ​ຂ້າ​ພະ​ເຈົ້າ​ຂອງ​ການ​ຄາດ​ຄະ​ເນ​ທີ່​ມີ​ຈະ​ຊີ້​ບອກ​ທີ່​ບໍ່​ມີ​ຫຼາຍ​ກ​່​ວາ​ບໍ່​ເທົ່າ​ໃດ​ຮ້ອຍ​ກໍ​ລະ​ນີ​ໃນ​ປີ​ໃຫມ່​ໃນ​ສະ​ຫະ​ລັດ. ມັນ​ສຸດ​ທ້າຍ​ໄດ້ 2 ອາ​ທິດ​ສໍາ​ລັບ​ການ​ຜ່າ​ຕັດ​ຂອງ​ຂ້າ​ພະ​ເຈົ້າ​ທີ່​ຈະ​ໄດ້​ຮັບ​ການ​ປະ​ຕິ​ບັດ. ການ​ຜ່າ​ຕັດ​ຢູ່​ໃນ​ນ​້​ໍ​າ​ໂຮງ​ຫມໍ Methodist ໃນ Columbus ການ, OH ໄດ້​ດີ, ຂ້າ​ພະ​ເຈົ້າ​ໄດ້​ໂດຍ​ຜ່ານ​ການ Rehab ສ້ວຍ​ບໍ່​ມີ​ສໍາ​ລັບ​ການ​ຕໍ່​ອາ​ທິດ​ຫຼັງ​ຈາກ​ການ​ຜ່າ​ຕັດ​ໄດ້. ຫຼັງ​ຈາກ​ນັ້ນ​ຂ້າ​ພະ​ເຈົ້າ​ໄດ້​ໂດຍ​ຜ່ານ​ການ 15 sessions of Physical Therapy at NovaCare in Westerville, ໂອ້ຍ. My outcome is that I have some normal feeling again in my waist area somewhat in my thighs and in my shins. I have painful tingling in other parts of my thighs and in my feet. My calves are mostly numb unless pressed uponthen I can tell the leg muscles are cramped up, but the good part is that I can’t feel the cramps. I do stretches several times a day for calves and hamstrings. I use vision for balance and the leg weakness has diminished, i.e. strength has returned, to the point where I can walk about 500 feet with a cane and about 125 feet unassisted. Bowel and bladder functioning is that they function, I just can’t control them or tell when I have to goI get surprises. ຂ້າ​ພະ​ເຈົ້າ​ພະ​ຍາ​ຍາມ​ທີ່​ຈະ​ໄປ​ກ່ຽວ​ກັບ​ການ​ກໍາ​ນົດ​ເວ​ລາ​ປົກ​ກະ​ຕິ​ເພື່ອ​ຫຼີກ​ເວັ້ນ​ການ​ແປກ​ໃຈ​ແລະ​ຂ້າ​ພະ​ເຈົ້າ​ສາ​ມາດ​ບອກ​ໄດ້​ຫຼາຍ​ທີ່​ສຸດ​ຂອງ​ທີ່​ໃຊ້​ເວ​ລາ​ໃນ​ເວ​ລາ​ທີ່​ພົກ​ຍ່ຽວ​ຂອງ​ຂ້າ​ພະ​ເຈົ້າ​ແມ່ນ​ໄດ້​ຮັບ​ຢ່າງ​ໃກ້​ຊິດ​ກັບ​ຈຸດ​ທີ່​ໄດ້ leaking. ຂ້າ​ພະ​ເຈົ້າ​ໄດ້​ຮັບ​ການ​ນາ​ທີ​ຫຼື​ສອງ​ຂອງ​ການ​ເຕືອນ​ໄພ​ກ່ຽວ​ກັບ​ການ​ເຄື່ອນ​ໄຫວ​ຂອງ​ອຸ​ທອນ​ທີ່​ສຸດ​ຂອງ​ທີ່​ໃຊ້​ເວ​ລາ, ແຕ່​ຂ້າ​ພະ​ເຈົ້າ​ບໍ່​ມີ​ຄວາມ​ຮູ້​ສຶກ​ໂດຍ​ທົ່ວ​ໄປ​ແລ້ວ​ໃຫ້​ເຂົາ​ເຈົ້າ. ໃນ​ຄໍາ​ສັບ​ຕ່າງໆ​ອື່ນໆ, ການ​ຜ່າ​ຕັດ​ຊັກ​ຊ້າ​ຂອງ​ຂ້າ​ພະ​ເຈົ້າ​ຄວນ​ຈະ​ໄດ້​ມີ​ໄວ້​ຂ້າ​ພະ​ເຈົ້າ​ຄົນ​ພິ​ການ, ໃນ​ຕຽງ​ນອນ​ຂອງ, cathing ຕົນ​ເອງ, ແລະ killers ອາ​ການ​ເຈັບ​ປວດ. ຂ້າ​ພະ​ເຈົ້າ​ໄດ້​ເຮັດ​ວຽກ​ທີ່​ໃຊ້​ເວ​ລາ​ຢ່າງ​ເຕັມ​ທີ່, ເຈົ້າ​ຄົນເຈັບ​ໄລ​ຍະ​ສັ້ນ​ບໍ່​ຈໍາ​ເປັນ​ຕ້ອງ cathing, ແລະ​ເຈົ້າ​ສຸດ​ທີ່​ບໍ່​ຮຸນ​ແຮງ, reliever ອາ​ການ​ເຈັບ​ປວດ​ທີ່​ບໍ່​ແມ່ນ narcotic. ໃນ​ສັ້ນ, ການ​ຟື້ນ​ຕົວ​ຂອງ​ຂ້າ​ພະ​ເຈົ້າ​ໄດ້​ທີ່​ຍິ່ງ​ໃຫຍ່. ຫນຶ່ງ​ໃນ​ທີ່​ດີ​ທີ່​ສຸດ. ຢ່າງ​ໃດ​ກໍ​ຕາມ, ຂ້າ​ພະ​ເຈົ້າ​ຍັງ​ມີ​ຊີ​ວິດ​ຂອງ​ປະ​ຈໍາ​ວັນ​ເປັນ​ສິ່ງ​ທີ່​ທ້າ​ທາຍ​ທາງ​ດ້ານ​ຮ່າງ​ກາຍ​ແລະ struggle. ທີ່​ຈະ​ບໍ່​ມີ​ການ​ປ່ຽນ​ແປງ, ແຕ່​ວ່າ okay (ຫົວ​ເລື່ອງ​ຂອງ​ການ​ເລື່ອງ​ຂອງ​ຄົນ​ອື່ນ​.) ຂ້າ​ພະ​ເຈົ້າ​ໄດ້​ຢ່າງ​ຫຼາຍ​ຂອງ​ການ wondering ຖ້າ​ຫາກ​ວ່າ​ຂ້າ​ພະ​ເຈົ້າ​ຈະ​ໄດ້ gotten ກັບ​ຄືນ​ໄປ​ບ່ອນ​ປົກ​ກະ​ຕິ, ຫຼື​ປົກ​ກະ​ຕິ​ໄດ້, ຂ້າ​ພະ​ເຈົ້າ​ໄດ້​ຮັບ​ການ​ຜ່າ​ຕັດ​ໄດ້​ຢ່າງ​ວ່ອງ​ໄວ, ພາຍ​ໃນ 48 ຊົ່ວ​ໂມງ. ຄວາມ​ຮູ້​ສຶກ​ວ່າ​ການ​ດູ​ແລ​ທີ່​ຂ້າ​ພະ​ເຈົ້າ​ໄດ້​ຮັບ​ຈາກ​ທ່ານ​ຫມໍ ER ແມ່ນ​ເລີຍ, ຂ້າ​ພະ​ເຈົ້າ​ໄດ້​ທຸກ​ສິ່ງ​ທຸກ​ຢ່າງ​ທີ່​ຈະ Columbus ເປັນ, ທະ​ນາຍ​ຄວາມ OH. ພຣະ​ອົງ​ໄດ້​ເອີ້ນ​ວ່າ​ທະ​ນາຍ​ຄວາມ​ໃນ Cleveland ອື່ນ, OH ສໍາ​ລັບ​ຄວາມ​ຄິດ​ເຫັນ​ທີ​ສອງ. ພວກ​ເຂົາ​ທັງ​ສອງ​ໄດ້​ຕົກ​ລົງ​ວ່າ​ການປະພຶດ​ທີ່ບໍ່ຖືກຕ້ອງ​ໄດ້​ສັນ​ຍາ, ທີ່​ທ່ານ​ຫມໍ ER ໄດ້ “ໄດ້​ຫຼຸດ​ລົງ​ບານ​ໄດ້” ເປັນ​ຫນຶ່ງ​ຂອງ​ທະ​ນາຍ​ຄວາມ​ໄດ້​ເຮັດ​ໃຫ້​ມັນ. ຢ່າງ​ໃດ​ກໍ​ຕາມ, ອັນ​ເນື່ອງ​ມາ​ຈາກ​ມາດ​ຕະ​ຖານ​ສໍາ​ລັບ​ການ​ຮ້ອງ​ຂໍ​ເງິນ​ການປະພຶດ​ທີ່ບໍ່ຖືກຕ້ອງ​ໃນ Ohio, ທະ​ນາຍ​ຄວາມ​ທັງ​ສອງ​ຮູ້​ສຶກ​ວ່າ Proving ວ່າ​ເລີຍ​ທ່ານ​ຫມໍ​ໄດ້​ຮັບ​ຜົນ​ກະ​ທົບ​ຢ່າງ​ຫຼວງ​ຫຼາຍ​ຜົນ​ໄດ້​ຮັບ​ຂອງ​ຂ້າ​ພະ​ເຈົ້າ (ຂ້າ​ພະ​ເຈົ້າ​ກໍ່​ດີ​ຂຶ້ນ​ກວ່າ​ຫຼາຍ​ກ​່​ວາ​ຄາດ​ຄະ​ເນ​ໂດຍ​ການ​ຮັບ​ຂໍ້​ເທັດ​ຈິງ) ຈະ​ເປັນ​ສິ່ງ​ທີ່​ທ້າ​ທາຍ insurmountable ໃນ​ສານ. ນັບ​ຕັ້ງ​ແຕ່​ນັ້ນ​ແມ່ນ​ສ່ວນ​ທີ່​ກໍ່​ເຮັດ​ໃຫ້​ຈໍາ​ນວນ​ເງິນ​ໂດ​ລາ​ຂອງ​ການ​ຕັ້ງ​ຖິ່ນ​ຖານ​ໃດ​ຫນຶ່ງ, ແລະ​ດັ່ງ​ນັ້ນ​ການ​ຄ່າ​ທໍາ​ນຽມ​ທະ​ນາຍ​ຄວາມ​ໄດ້, my remarkable recovery makes pursuing the malpractice and negligence of the ER doctor not feasible. So the summary is that the laws in Ohio say that what I’ve been through, and will go through the rest of my life, amounts to nothing. Our legal system is such that only lucrative cases are pursued. And our medical system does not educate doctors, nurses, and first responders adequately nor does it keep them updated. Had the ER doctor realized that bladder retention and not only incontinence is an indicator, we would have been golden. The info regarding retention is widely available on the internet and in medical journals. To discount the correct diagnosis on the basis of 1 symptom is not what I want in a doctor. I feel that justice has lost in this one. ຢ່າງ​ໃດ​ກໍ​ຕາມ, I am at peace with this as I relate in this post – Title Blog ຂອງ​ຂ້າ​ພະ​ເຈົ້າ​ການ​ປ່ຽນ​ແປງ​ແຕ່​ຍັງ​ກ່ຽວ​ກັບ Cauda Equina ໂຣກ​ແລະ​ຂ້ອຍ. […]

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