Kadangi turėjau nervų atauga po padarytą žalą mano uodegoje equina sindromas, I was able to feel a pain in my right ankle that wasn't like the pain in my other ankle nor the other side of my right one. Aš jį patikrinome prieš Kalėdas. Dr. sakė, kad jis manė, kad tai buvo suplėšyti sausgyslė & užsisakiau nervų laidumo testą (Siekiant nustatyti, kiek nervus vis dar egzistuoja) ir dėl šios teisės kulkšnies MRT. Bandymai buvo atlikti iš karto po Kalėdų.
Grįžau vakar į gydytoją, kad gauti rezultatai. Niekada sugadinti - dar daug; sausgyslė - suplėšyti, ir blaškosi taip, kad tik nustatyti jį bus chirurgija. Na mes tik pradėjome naujus metus, kad operacija būtų iš kišenės sąskaita. Ne problema, jei yra kažkas į kišenę. Po 4 operacijų ir reabilitacijos pernai tarp Kim ir aš, kišenės yra plikas. Taigi, mes turime pasitikėti Dievu suteikti šią. Jokia nuostata = nėra operacija.
So I'm wearing a brace and have order to take it easy. Dr. parodė man judesius Aš esu neleisti mano koja padaryti, kartu su kai kurių veiklos apribojimų (kurių dauguma aš negaliu to padaryti vistiek dėl uodegoje equina sindromas). Jis sakė, kad jei ji tampa per daug skausminga ar turiu daugiau blogų dienų kaip geras, tai bus laikas veikti.
Tada yra atsigavimas - ne svoris guolis mesti už 3 dienos, vaikščioti mesti už 3 daugiau savaičių, prilaikant boot dar 3 daugiau savaičių po kineziterapijos. Dabar tai tik ne į korteles.
Kaip tai susiję su mano uodegoje equina sindromas? The inflammation of my superficial peroneal nerve restricted how far upwards I could bend my right foot, todėl, kai atsižvelgiant žingsnis į priekį su savo kaire koja, šis apribojimas nuolat mano kulkšnis nuo lenkiantis pirmyn taip, kaip turėtų. Once it hit that point, jis būtų "ritinys" į išorę (teisė) pusė čiurnos. This caused a lot of motion in bad ways on the tendon, galiausiai sukelia ašarą.
Taigi toliau mes einame. So far this has affected the speed and length of my walking. We'll see what else it affects. But in this, ir visų dalykų, my wife and I trust God's plan for us. And we praise Him and continue to walk, nors ir lėčiau, su juo šioje kelionėje.
Mėnuo 9 nuėjo į istorijos knygas apie 11/11. Aš ir toliau turi pagerinti simptomų mano Uodega arklių sindromas. Mažiau mano kojos yra visiškai nutirpęs dabar, su apie kitą 10% iš nutirpęs sričių atgauti Tingly jausmas virš mėnesio kursą. Savo kojų nuosėdos jaustis mažiau skausmo, mažiau, kaip jie vaikščioti ant armatūros (http://wp.me/p3A64Y-6Y) ir daugiau kaip normalus. Į viršų jį išjungti, mano kojos tampa vis stipresnis.
Dėl grįžta į Lancaster, mes pakeitėme pirminės sveikatos priežiūros gydytojai (vėl) ir nauja siūloma naudojant padų fascitas boot padėti mano pėdos nervai sugriežtinti naktį. Kai aš keltis ryte, mano pirštai išlenda į dešinę žemyn ir užtrunka šiek tiek laiko vaikščioti ištiesinti juos. Su nervo, kad eina iš mano didįjį pirštą aukštyn per čiurnos (the bendra peroneal nervų, Manau,) griežtinimas, Tai daro atsižvelgiant normalų ilgio žingsnis mano kairės kojos sunkiau. Tai yra todėl, kad dešinės kojos nebus lankstyti aukštyn pakankamai. Taigi tai suteikia man šlubuoti arba valcavimo judėjimo tiek mano eisena.
Pastaruosius pusę mėnesio 9 ruošėsi mano žmonos kelio sąnario pakeitimo operacijos. Ji buvo skausmas gana ilgą laiką. Skausmas buvo išlaikyti savo atsibunda naktį. Tai buvo gauti per daug duoti ir gauti operacija padaryta nusveria trūkumus. Taigi pamatę labai rekomenduojama chirurgas ortopedas, lankyti klasę (Aš turėjau eiti į jį per), ir įtikinti sveikatos priežiūros specialistus, kad aš mano cukranendrių galėtų rūpintis savo, chirurgija buvo nustatytas 11/13.
Mes ruošiasi pradėti naują tarnystę bažnyčioje & bendruomenės, kuris yra pradėjimo daug mūsų laiko priemonė. Mes padarėme keletą gyvenimo būdo pakeitimus, arba tiksliau, mes padarėme pakeitimus, kas turi prioritetas mūsų gyvenime. Mes busier nei mes jau ilgą laiką, dar turime laiko ir energijos naujų dalykų, kaip sena imtis mažesnę vietą mūsų gyvenime. Mes tikimės, kad Mėnesio 10 su tikintis mano žmonos operacijos ir atsigavimo. Mes tikimės, kad jos atleidimo nuo skausmo ir daugiau jausmas grįžta mane. Nors tik vienas iš tų, yra didelė tikimybė, imsimės ką duoda Dievas ir džiaugtis juo. Mėnuo 9 buvo geras.
Mano 8dmonth withUodega arklių sindromasis in the books now and what a month! We moved back to our old house on Sep 6dand began the process of unpacking. Aš paėmė laiko ne Nuo rugsėjis 6 - 15 , kad galėčiau padėti stebėti judėti (o gal net padėti šiek tiek.) We’ve been taking it slowly, metering our energy and pain levels out. My wife and I enjoyed our time together immensely. We did our devotional times together and then discussed it in depth, often spending an hour or more a day on it. We found out that there is a lot of truth in the statement, “The closer a couple gets to God, the closer they get to each other.” We had a great time of reconnecting in a relaxed atmosphere. We sure needed this time!
Just prior to the end of Month 7, I reached a low point in battling CES. The long days of physical challenge, the emotional toll, and the strain on my wife as well came to a head. Aš nežinojau, tai tada, but God was preparing me for what was just days away. He broke me down completely as I spent several hours one night, sobbing and crying out to Him. I was looking for answers and understanding. Eventually, I was spent physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually. Then there was nothing. No prompting, no comfort, no answers. I fell asleep.
Immediately upon waking the following morning, I knew God had answered. His peace was on me like never before and I felt His comfort wrapping me. Not a in a physical sense, but just knowing, throughout my being, that He had heard and was showing His love for me. It changed my outlook on life, my Cauda Equina Syndrome, and much more. I even changed the title of this blog. You can read more about it here - http://wp.me/p3A64Y-7V
During the study my wife and I were doing together after moving, each of us (separately) came to a realization that we had slowly taken back our lives from God and that He was calling us back to fully committing to Him. We explored the depth of that commitment because it was clear that it was far more than we had ever considered it to be. As we each pondered it that day, the Word sank in. That evening, I told my wife that I had decided to go all in – yielding my life to God for His purposes. She had made the same decision. We rejoiced together.
In Month 8, I also came to the end of the road for legal action regarding my Cauda Equina Syndrome. I had 2 separate law firms look at the case for a possible malpractice claim. Both attorneys say that without doubt there wasmedical malpracticecommitted on me. Tačiau, under Ohio law, the “value” of a medical malpractice case is determined by how much better your outcome would have been if the malpractice made a difference. I have been very blessed by the Lord in my recovery thus far. Most who are afflicted with Cauda Equina Syndrome are left mostly or totally disabled for the rest of their lives – dealing with pain, numbness/lack of feeling, bladder and bowel problems and sexual dysfunction.
I’ve pushed hard since my surgery, spending a week in Acute Rehab at the hospital then 2 months of outpatientFizinė terapija. I’ve done my stretches and exercises faithfully. I willed myself back to work and worked through pain for several months. My recovery, by objective standards, has been remarkable. My prognosis at the time of the surgery was in the worst possible outcome category due to the malpractice and delay in diagnosing and treating the CES. God fooled them all. I still have all of the above problems, but they are quite manageable with proper treatment and sensible limitations on my activities. I’m in the top 5% of outcome possibilities. So you can see that had the malpractice not occurred, my actual outcome wouldn’t be much, if any, better than it has been. Legally, that means the malpractice didn’t matter. I will be dealing with these symptoms and restrictions for the rest of my life but because I am doing better than I should, it isn’t worth anything. You know what? I’ll take my recovery over having done poorly enough to have a good malpractice case – ANY DAY!!!
The week after my wife and I committing and yielding fully to the Lord was one of great spiritual attack upon us. Everything that could go wrong did, 10 times over it did. And then some! I’ve never seen anything like it in my 55 years. We were so overwhelmed with PROBLEMS that arose with everything, from fighting with an unscrupulous business, to insurance issues with health, home, life and auto insurances, to mail going missing (it took one important letter 20 days to make it 40 miles), pharmacy orders disappearing in transit (and unable to reach anyone in the company to fix it), to car problems, and much, much more!
Pirma, we fell back to our old ways and began to feel overwhelmed and angry. But God wasn’t going to let us go back to what we were. He showed us that it was a spiritual attack and calmed us with His comfort. You know what, He was right. None of it surprised Him, He has our lives so He can do whatever He wants with them, and the result was amazing. We put out a prayer request and many people from all over the country prayed. We were protected and the attacks ceased.
In the rest of Month 8, I’m now commuting 100 miles a day, round trip. I can make the trip in to work in just 45 protokolas. Tačiau, the trip home takes about 65-75 protokolas. In the old days (last month), I would have worked myself up in a tizzy with Road Rage in that time! Dabar, God is in control of when I get to work and when I get home. I just enjoy talking with Him and being courteous to the other drivers who are desperately frazzled. I used to pride myself on my “excellent” driving skills allowing me to move through traffic quicker than others. Now I drive to help others, even though they won’t often know it. And I get a much bigger charge out of the new way!
In summary, at the end of Month 8, life is good. It certainly isn’t what I would have designed or wanted from the individual aspects. But the whole of what God has made of my life and done in me with His relationship with me, is great! I love my wife more than I ever knew one could love. And the love for my Christian family has multiplied many times over. My life is now focused on how I can help others as I go through life knowing that God’s desire for me is to become, in words, mintys, and actions, an extension of Jesus. When others interact with me, they must see Jesus and His love for them. This is what drives me now. It is what should drive all who call themselves Christians. Charles Spurgeononce said, “Every Christian is either a missionary or an imposter.” Which are you?
Mėnuo 8 = more normal feeling, more changing of tingly not painful into tingly painful (this means movement towards normal feeling), and better bowel & bladder activity. I was told the nerves would regenerate for a year with most of the regeneration occurring in the first 6 mėnesių. I’d had no significant changes since Month 2. Maybe I was too busyfightingCauda Equina Syndrome rather thanlivingwith it. I’m not going to say that this is a reward from God for yielding to Him because I don’t believe He operates that way. He loves us all and wants us all to trust in Jesus, first for salvation and secondly for life. All that He allows or causes in our lives are to bring us to those two goals – first to rely on Jesus’ death in our place as the only way we can have a right relationship with Him and live with Him in Heaven one day. Once we have done that, God focuses all of His resources towards us to make us into images of Jesus – we are molded to have kind and loving words like Jesus, have gracious and generous thoughts like Jesus, and not WWJD (What Would Jesus Do?) but WDJD – What Did Jesus Do? How did He act with love for others and for the Father? Not what we think He would act like regarding something today, instead acting out of His love in ALL things.
What a month! What a life! Thanks for reading, my family, my friends, and my extended family in His Spirit.
Ihave changed the title of my blog. Kodėl? Ne iš nuobodulio ar tiesiog mylėti pokyčius, daug nutiko nuo paskutinio mano postą. I'll soon post about it, but for now we can say that the Lord has changed my view of what has happened to me... ir jo artimiausiems tikslams už jį.
My faith has seen me through this "Battle" su Uodega arklių sindromas (CES) thus far, but I had no idea where my faith journey was heading. Taip, I wondered why this had happened, what God wanted me to learn and how I should view it. We all know that bad things happen to good people and good things happen to bad people. We always want to know why and often the answer we get is that we may never know why in this lifetime so we just have to live with it. I've heard a lot over the years about people with terrible injuries and diseases "fighting" or "battling" those things which seek to either ruin or take their life. Friends and relatives have been touched by, and some lost to, injuries or disease. Now it is my turn.
What I came to realize is that I had stopped growing spiritually and I was barely being effective in God's Kingdom. God wanted so much more from me but I had succumbed to "The Rat Race" and devoted myself to my work. Don't get me wrong, work is important, but so much more had suffered. My relationship with my wife, my time and service to God and the joy was gone from my life. Through this time of a changed life, where the daily routine of getting up and going to work is a draining physical challenge for me, I've seen myself as battling CES as though my faith, grit and determination were being tested. While they were being tested, that wasn't all. My focus had been on recovering far more than the doctors and physical therapists ever thought I could, further than the medical research said I could. I was going to win my "Battle". I didn't, and don't, hold out the idea of a complete recovery but my goal has been to be able to walk without assistance again - a lofty goal for someone with CES.
It was my attitude that needed changing. I saw this as a challenge where my faith would see me through and coming out the other side of this I would give the credit to God. I would be a faithful soldier in His service. Nothing wrong with that, but... God wanted me. All of me. He has wanted all of me for a long time. I thought I had given myself to Him fully many years ago. He has used me in so many ways everywhere I've lived. But as I said, I had slowly slipped back in to taking His blessings and running with it for my own purposes without even considering His. My wife tried to help me see it, but I was too focused on my goal - which had been so out of reach and now, because of God's blessing, was within my grasp. My attitude had slowly changed and was no longer good. God's smackdown on me physically also affected me emotionally, mentally and spiritually as well. Eventually, everything was stripped away but the spiritual. I found that I had taken myself back from God and He was calling me to give myself completely to Him. Only this time, I understand there is much more depth in this commitment than I ever thought possible before.
In the Ohio derecho storms of June 29, 2012, we lost an old Ash tree that was 85 feet in length. Two men gave us a really good quote on cutting up the tree, removing the stump, and hauling it all away. They figured they could do it in 2 days, 6 hours a day . The stump was incredibly stubborn. Once they started on it, they found it had thick roots running out in all directions for many, many feet. It was too thick for their saws. They chopped at it with axes and worked 3 days from morning till dark. They even had another person come help. And still the stump remained. Finally they rented a stump grinder and did their best. That stump beat them badly for days. In the end, they accomplished what we needed leaving a small mound where the tree had been, tačiau, there are still roots under that mound. And they had spent over 40 hours on the project. Their quote earned them less than $6 per hour.
That's how it is when I first gave myself "fully" to God. I saw what looked like full commitment and made that commitment. Over time, there was more and more revealed but I had my goals and dreams too and there was no time, no room, for truly giving myself to God as fully as He wanted. In time, I took back what I had given Him. Suddenly, this year, God changed all of that. Stricken with an injury that would change the rest of my life, taking away many of the things I wanted to do and accomplish, I now had time for Him. I've learned that He wants all of me, and I've made that commitment to Him. Dabar, whatever recovery I have is fine with me. Of course being who I am, I will still be pushing for the best results possible. As with many whom God used in the past, He has place His mark of ownership on me - my CES. It is a reminder of whose I am, whose strength I depend on, and who has complete control of my life. We are not to give God a little, or even a large, part in our lives. He wants our whole life to be a part of His. He wants to live out His life through us. That's what the Bible means when Paul wrote in the 8th Chapter of Romans that we who believe are being shaped and molded by God to be just like Jesus. Not just our character, but character drives motivation, and out of motivation comes actions. God uses the events in our lives to transform us (Romans 12), and He transforms us into people who think, act, speak, and love just like Jesus. Kodėl? So He can reach people who don't know, or those who don't care about His love.
No wonder so many in America today don't want anything to do with Christianity or church - look at how we Christians live! That isn't God's plan. Time for me to get with the plan. And I no longer fight CES, but it is a mark of ownership on me and of my commitment to God. So it is now "Mano gyvenimas su uodegoje equina sindromas" and thus the new name for my blog.