Блог назва змінилася, але як і раніше про кінського хвоста синдром & мене

Я have changed the title of my blog. Why? Not out of boredom or just liking change, much has happened since my last post. I'll soon post about it, but for now we can say that the Lord has changed my view of what has happened to me... and His immediate purposes behind it.

My faith has seen me through this "Battle" with Кінського коней синдром (CES) thus far, but I had no idea where my faith journey was heading. Так, I wondered why this had happened, what God wanted me to learn and how I should view it. We all know that bad things happen to good people and good things happen to bad people. We always want to know why and often the answer we get is that we may never know why in this lifetime so we just have to live with it. I've heard a lot over the years about people with terrible injuries and diseases "боротьба" або "battling" those things which seek to either ruin or take their life. Friends and relatives have been touched by, and some lost to, injuries or disease. Now it is my turn.

What I came to realize is that I had stopped growing spiritually and I was barely being effective in God's Kingdom. God wanted so much more from me but I had succumbed to "The Rat Race" and devoted myself to my work. Don't get me wrong, work is important, but so much more had suffered. My relationship with my wife, my time and service to God and the joy was gone from my life. Through this time of a changed life, where the daily routine of getting up and going to work is a draining physical challenge for me, I've seen myself as battling CES as though my faith, grit and determination were being tested. While they were being tested, that wasn't all. My focus had been on recovering far more than the doctors and physical therapists ever thought I could, further than the medical research said I could. I was going to win my "Battle". I didn't, and don't, hold out the idea of a complete recovery but my goal has been to be able to walk without assistance again - a lofty goal for someone with CES.

It was my attitude that needed changing. I saw this as a challenge where my faith would see me through and coming out the other side of this I would give the credit to God. I would be a faithful soldier in His service. Nothing wrong with that, but... God wanted me. All of me. He has wanted all of me for a long time. I thought I had given myself to Him fully many years ago. He has used me in so many ways everywhere I've lived. But as I said, I had slowly slipped back in to taking His blessings and running with it for my own purposes without even considering His. My wife tried to help me see it, but I was too focused on my goal - which had been so out of reach and now, because of God's blessing, was within my grasp. My attitude had slowly changed and was no longer good. God's smackdown on me physically also affected me emotionally, mentally and spiritually as well. Зрештою, everything was stripped away but the spiritual. I found that I had taken myself back from God and He was calling me to give myself completely to Him. Only this time, I understand there is much more depth in this commitment than I ever thought possible before.

In the Ohio derecho storms of June 29, 2012, we lost an old Ash tree that was 85 feet in length. Two men gave us a really good quote on cutting up the tree, removing the stump, and hauling it all away. They figured they could do it in 2 days, 6 hours a day . The stump was incredibly stubborn. Once they started on it, they found it had thick roots running out in all directions for many, many feet. It was too thick for their saws. They chopped at it with axes and worked 3 days from morning till dark. They even had another person come help. And still the stump remained. Finally they rented a stump grinder and did their best. That stump beat them badly for days. In the end, they accomplished what we needed leaving a small mound where the tree had been, однак, there are still roots under that mound. And they had spent over 40 hours on the project. Their quote earned them less than $6 per hour.

That's how it is when I first gave myself "fully" to God. I saw what looked like full commitment and made that commitment. Over time, there was more and more revealed but I had my goals and dreams too and there was no time, no room, for truly giving myself to God as fully as He wanted. In time, I took back what I had given Him. Suddenly, this year, God changed all of that. Stricken with an injury that would change the rest of my life, taking away many of the things I wanted to do and accomplish, I now had time for Him. I've learned that He wants all of me, and I've made that commitment to Him. Зараз, whatever recovery I have is fine with me. Of course being who I am, I will still be pushing for the best results possible. As with many whom God used in the past, He has place His mark of ownership on me - my CES. It is a reminder of whose I am, whose strength I depend on, and who has complete control of my life. We are not to give God a little, or even a large, part in our lives. He wants our whole life to be a part of His. He wants to live out His life through us. That's what the Bible means when Paul wrote in the 8th Chapter of Romans that we who believe are being shaped and molded by God to be just like Jesus. Not just our character, but character drives motivation, and out of motivation comes actions. God uses the events in our lives to transform us (Romans 12), and He transforms us into people who think, act, speak, and love just like Jesus. Why? So He can reach people who don't know, or those who don't care about His love.

No wonder so many in America today don't want anything to do with Christianity or church - look at how we Christians live! That isn't God's plan. Time for me to get with the plan. And I no longer fight CES, but it is a mark of ownership on me and of my commitment to God. So it is now "Моє життя з кінського хвоста синдром" and thus the new name for my blog.


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  1. […] Я сміявся, коли я прочитав ці! Ну скільки можна сміятися в той час як в гіршому болю я коли-небудь відчував. I already had most of these return or get immediate attention symptoms!! Жінка сказала, що вони були просто загальні інструкції розряду для грижі дисків і не стосується мене. Більшість медичних література стверджує, що хірургічна декомпресія необхідно зробити протягом 24-48 годин або результат набагато гірше. Після того, як ті, 48 годин пішли, ви дуже добре збирається заводити відключена для іншої частини вашого життя. Так говорить література. I can tell you right now that that is not always the case as I’m living proof, but that is another story. Other medical literature says that the surgery must be done within 6-12 hours to effect the outcome. Still other studies say that time to surgery doesn’t affect the outcome. Why such divergence? Cauda Equina Syndrome is rare. No one knows exactly how rare, but my research of available estimates would indicate no more than a few hundred new cases a year in the U.S. It ultimately took 2 weeks for my surgery to be performed. The surgery at Riverside Methodist Hospital in Columbus, OH went well, I went through Acute Rehab there for a week after the surgery. I then went through 15 sessions of Physical Therapy at NovaCare in Westerville, Огайо. Мій результат у тому, що у мене є нормальний почуття знову в моїй області талії кілька в моїх стегнах і в моїх гомілок. У мене є хворобливе поколювання в інших частинах моїх стегон і в ногах. Мої телят в основному оніміли якщо не прохав – то я можу сказати, що м'язи ніг тісно вгору, але хороша частина в тому, що я не можу відчувати судоми. Я тягнеться кілька разів на день для телят і підколінні сухожилля. Я використовую бачення балансу і слабкість ніг зменшилася, i.e. Сила повернулася, до точки, де я можу пройти близько 500 футів з тростиною і близько 125 футів без сторонньої допомоги. Кишечника і сечового міхура функціонування є те, що вони функціонують, Я просто не можу їх контролювати або дізнатися, коли я повинен йти – Я отримую сюрпризи. Я намагаюся піти на регулярній основі, щоб уникнути несподіванок і я можу сказати більшу частину часу, коли мій сечовий міхур стає ближче до точки негерметичного. Я отримую хвилину чи дві, попередження про дефекації більшу частину часу, але я взагалі не відчуваю їх. Іншими словами, мій затримується операція повинна залишили мені інвалідів, в ліжку, чіплялися себе, і на знеболюючих. Я працюю повний робочий день, ранку амбулаторно на короткі відстані не потрібно чіплялися, і перебуваю на м'який, ненаркотичні знеболювальні. Коротше кажучи, моє одужання було здорово. Один з кращих. Однак, У мене ще є життя кожен день бути фізична проблема і боротьба. Це не зміниться, але це нормально (предметом іншої історії.) Я зробив багато цікаво, якщо я отримав би повернутися до нормального життя, або майже нормально, якби я переніс операцію швидко, в 48 годин. Feeling that the care I received from the ER doctor was negligent, I took everything to a Columbus, OH attorney. He called on another attorney in Cleveland, OH for a second opinion. They both agreed that malpractice was committed, that the ER doctordropped the ballas one of the attorneys put it. Однак, due to the standards for malpractice claims in Ohio, both attorneys felt that proving that the doctor’s negligence greatly affected my outcome (my really much better than predicted by the facts outcome) would be an insurmountable challenge in court. Since that is the portion that really drives the dollar amount of any settlement, and thus the attorney’s fees, my remarkable recovery makes pursuing the malpractice and negligence of the ER doctor not feasible. So the summary is that the laws in Ohio say that what I’ve been through, and will go through the rest of my life, amounts to nothing. Our legal system is such that only lucrative cases are pursued. And our medical system does not educate doctors, nurses, and first responders adequately nor does it keep them updated. Had the ER doctor realized that bladder retention and not only incontinence is an indicator, we would have been golden. The info regarding retention is widely available on the internet and in medical journals. To discount the correct diagnosis on the basis of 1 symptom is not what I want in a doctor. I feel that justice has lost in this one. Однак, I am at peace with this as I relate in this postMy Blog Title Changed but Still About Cauda Equina Syndrome and Me. […]

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