博客標題改變,但仍有約馬尾症候群 & 我

have changed the title of my blog. Why? Not out of boredom or just liking change, much has happened since my last post. I'll soon post about it, but for now we can say that the Lord has changed my view of what has happened to me... and His immediate purposes behind it.

My faith has seen me through this "Battle" with 馬尾綜合徵 (國際消費電子展) thus far, but I had no idea where my faith journey was heading. 是的, I wondered why this had happened, what God wanted me to learn and how I should view it. We all know that bad things happen to good people and good things happen to bad people. We always want to know why and often the answer we get is that we may never know why in this lifetime so we just have to live with it. I've heard a lot over the years about people with terrible injuries and diseases "fighting" or "battling" those things which seek to either ruin or take their life. Friends and relatives have been touched by, and some lost to, injuries or disease. Now it is my turn.

What I came to realize is that I had stopped growing spiritually and I was barely being effective in God's Kingdom. God wanted so much more from me but I had succumbed to "The Rat Race" and devoted myself to my work. Don't get me wrong, work is important, but so much more had suffered. My relationship with my wife, my time and service to God and the joy was gone from my life. Through this time of a changed life, where the daily routine of getting up and going to work is a draining physical challenge for me, I've seen myself as battling CES as though my faith, grit and determination were being tested. While they were being tested, that wasn't all. My focus had been on recovering far more than the doctors and physical therapists ever thought I could, further than the medical research said I could. I was going to win my "Battle". I didn't, and don't, hold out the idea of a complete recovery but my goal has been to be able to walk without assistance again - a lofty goal for someone with CES.

It was my attitude that needed changing. I saw this as a challenge where my faith would see me through and coming out the other side of this I would give the credit to God. I would be a faithful soldier in His service. Nothing wrong with that, but... God wanted me. All of me. He has wanted all of me for a long time. I thought I had given myself to Him fully many years ago. He has used me in so many ways everywhere I've lived. But as I said, I had slowly slipped back in to taking His blessings and running with it for my own purposes without even considering His. My wife tried to help me see it, but I was too focused on my goal - which had been so out of reach and now, because of God's blessing, was within my grasp. My attitude had slowly changed and was no longer good. God's smackdown on me physically also affected me emotionally, mentally and spiritually as well. 終於, everything was stripped away but the spiritual. I found that I had taken myself back from God and He was calling me to give myself completely to Him. Only this time, I understand there is much more depth in this commitment than I ever thought possible before.

In the Ohio derecho storms of June 29, 2012, we lost an old Ash tree that was 85 feet in length. Two men gave us a really good quote on cutting up the tree, removing the stump, and hauling it all away. They figured they could do it in 2 days, 6 hours a day . The stump was incredibly stubborn. Once they started on it, they found it had thick roots running out in all directions for many, many feet. It was too thick for their saws. They chopped at it with axes and worked 3 days from morning till dark. They even had another person come help. And still the stump remained. Finally they rented a stump grinder and did their best. That stump beat them badly for days. In the end, they accomplished what we needed leaving a small mound where the tree had been, 然而, there are still roots under that mound. And they had spent over 40 hours on the project. Their quote earned them less than $6 per hour.

That's how it is when I first gave myself "fully" to God. I saw what looked like full commitment and made that commitment. Over time, there was more and more revealed but I had my goals and dreams too and there was no time, no room, for truly giving myself to God as fully as He wanted. In time, I took back what I had given Him. Suddenly, this year, God changed all of that. Stricken with an injury that would change the rest of my life, taking away many of the things I wanted to do and accomplish, I now had time for Him. I've learned that He wants all of me, and I've made that commitment to Him. 現在, whatever recovery I have is fine with me. Of course being who I am, I will still be pushing for the best results possible. As with many whom God used in the past, He has place His mark of ownership on me - my CES. It is a reminder of whose I am, whose strength I depend on, and who has complete control of my life. We are not to give God a little, or even a large, part in our lives. He wants our whole life to be a part of His. He wants to live out His life through us. That's what the Bible means when Paul wrote in the 8th Chapter of Romans that we who believe are being shaped and molded by God to be just like Jesus. Not just our character, but character drives motivation, and out of motivation comes actions. God uses the events in our lives to transform us (Romans 12), and He transforms us into people who think, act, speak, and love just like Jesus. Why? So He can reach people who don't know, or those who don't care about His love.

No wonder so many in America today don't want anything to do with Christianity or church - look at how we Christians live! That isn't God's plan. Time for me to get with the plan. And I no longer fight CES, but it is a mark of ownership on me and of my commitment to God. So it is now "我的生活馬尾綜合徵" and thus the new name for my blog.




  1. […] 我笑了,當我讀到這些! 以及多達一會笑,而在最壞的痛苦,我曾經覺得. I already had most of these return or get immediate attention symptoms!! 該女子說,這些都是為椎間盤突出只是普通的出院指導,而不是具體的我. 該減壓手術大部分的醫療文獻的狀態,必須在完成 24-48 小時的結果是差遠了. 一旦這些 48 小時都走了, 你很好去風為你的餘生殘疾人. 所以說,文學. 我可以告訴你,現在是不是總是因為我居住證明的情況下,, 但那是另一個故事. 其他醫學文獻說,手術必須在完成 6-12 小時以實現的結果. 還有一些研究指出,時間到手術不影響結果. 為什麼這樣的分歧? 馬尾綜合徵是罕見的. 沒有人知道到底有罕見, 但我估計可用的研究將表明,每年不超過幾百個新病例多在美國. 它最終花了 2 要執行週我的手術. 在濱江衛理公會醫院在哥倫布手術, OH順利, 我經歷急性康復手術後去那裡一個星期. 然後,我經歷 15 物理治療在NovaCare在會議的Westerville, OH. 我的結果是,我又有些正常的感覺,在我的腰部有點在我的大腿和我的小腿. 我有痛苦刺痛了我的大腿等部位,並在我的腳. 除非經壓制我的小腿大多是麻木 – 那麼我可以告訴肌肉抽筋了腿, 但好的部分是,我感覺不到抽筋. 我做伸展,每天數次為小腿和腿筋. 我用視覺平衡和腿部無力已經減弱, 即. 實力已經恢復, 到這種地步,我可以步行約 500 腳拄著拐杖和有關 125 腳求告無門. 腸和膀胱功能是它們的功能, 我只是無法控制他們或者告訴我必須去 – 我得到驚喜. 我試著去定期以避免意外,我可以告訴大多數的時候,我的膀胱越來越接近洩漏點. 我上大便的大部分時間報警的一兩分鐘, 但我不普遍感到他們. 換句話說, 我的延遲手術應該給我留下傷殘, 在床上, cathing自己, 和止痛藥. 我全職工作, 是動態的短距離不需要cathing, 而我對輕度, 非麻醉性止痛藥. 簡而言之, 我的恢復已經很大. 其中最好的. 然而, 我還有一個是物理的挑戰和鬥爭生活的日常. 這不會改變, 不過沒關係 (主題的另一個故事。) 我做了很多不知道的,如果我會得到恢復正常, 或基本正常, 曾經我很快做了手術, 內 48 小時. 感覺,我從急診室醫生接受的護理是疏忽, 我把一切哥倫布, OH律師. 他呼籲在克利夫蘭另一位律師, 俄亥俄州的第二個意見. 他們都一致認為,醫療事故承諾, 該急診醫生 “丟球” 作為律師之一,把它. 然而, 由於該標準在俄亥俄州醫療事故索賠, 雙方的律師認為,這證明了醫生的疏忽,極大地影響了我的結局 (我真的很遠好於預期的事實結果) 將在法庭上難以逾越的挑戰. 因為這是真正推動任何結算金額的部分, 因此律師費, my remarkable recovery makes pursuing the malpractice and negligence of the ER doctor not feasible. 所以總結是,法律在俄亥俄州說,我經歷過, 並會通過我的餘生, 相當於什麼. 我們的法律體系是這樣的,只有賺錢的情況下被追. 而我們的醫療制度不育醫, 護士, 和第一反應充分,也不讓他們更新. 有急診醫生意識到,膀胱瀦留而不僅僅是尿失禁是一個指標, 我們本來是金. 該信息對於保持中獲得廣泛應用在互聯網上,並在醫學期刊. 打折正確診斷的基礎上, 1 症狀是不是我想要的醫生. 我覺得正義已經失去了這一個. 然而, 我在平安這個,因為我與這個職位 – 我的博客標題改變,但仍有約馬尾綜合徵和Me. […]